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this journal mostly concerns regular comments about my day-to-day experiences as well as musings and frustrations about my life as a human in general.
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This song makes me so inexplicably sad.
it was fabulous. i know most people go through college eating awful food.
sometimes i wonder if i've missed the essential college student experience of pretty much eating garbage straight out of bins.
then again, with a roommate that can cook stuff like that, i think my situation is much better.
we had some lovely sparkling grape juice along with dimmed lights, floating tea lights, rose petals, and a really shoddy vase made out of an old orange juice bottle.
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great job..fuckin' great job.
i mean, i know i'm not fat, i just happen to have a lot of junk in my trunk for an asian girl.
apparently you cannot imprison my ass in jean-leggings because it will find a way out.
even if it has to rip its way out.
you know, i'm trying not to be like that.
i can't help but think that the older i'm getting, the more of my hobbies i'm losing.
i wish i could stay passionate about the things i liked more instead of just lapsing into a 'blaaaah' sort of attitude about them after a couple years.
for one, i never really write anymore.
i used to enter competitions for creative writing in high school and middle school.
i also used to write short stories and poetry for fun.
now, i can't help but feel that, without a mentor, i have absolutely no drive to continue writing -- it's like my inspirations are gone.
the desire to create is still there, but i have almost nothing to work with.
same goes for drawing, i guess.
i can't remember the last time i did a drawing from sketch and brought it all the way through to finishing it by cleaning and painting it.
i haven't read any new books in a while.
mostly because i pick up books and then drop them halfway as soon as i lose interest.
uugh, i'm becoming boring.
stay passionate, stay passionate.
i feel like i'm becoming less of myself.
it's so weird.
an entire generation has basically had their faces stapled against the screen of a cell phone.
most of the time i have a hard time counting more than three people who are not staring at their cell phones and texting the entire bus ride.
alone in a crowd.
wonder what emerson would say about the idea of everyone actually being an individual, completely separate from the rest, despite being in a crowd.
only it's gone to the extreme now and you can't actually even talk to people if it isn't through texting.
a true story from oxford emory
once upon a time there was a fat happy cracked out gray squirrel. it spent all its days eating nuts and all sorts of goodies while crack-spazzing about in its paradise. one day, while the squirrel was out stuffing its face with more food, a giant hawk swooped down out of the sky and carried away the screaming squirrel as it writhed hopelessly in its claws before devouring and tearing it apart, leaving its rotting body behind as a young chinese girl watched in awe and horror from her dorm window.
i feel like this is a pretty accurate representation of my college experience thus far.
also, last night the fire alarm in the dorm went off at 4 am in the morning and i had to stand bitterly in the cold for half an hour for them to figure out the wiring problem with the alarms. after that i couldn't fall asleep so i just ended up lying with my eyes closed in bed for about two hours until i had to get up to go to work. guh.
at this point i think i've been naturally conditioned to not trust fire alarms.
they're all like the boy who cried wolf.